Well I am in the mood to waffle. But unsure where to start! It has been a long break! Life just gets like that.
Ok - I am going to start with the ugly one. My bosses horrible death. Well it would of been quick I guess. Sometimes thinking about stuff is just too hard. But sometimes writing it down makes it easier. So I am going to give that a go here.
Lisa drove a lovely Ford - the flash one not like mine. Same year model - but the nicer ones. I don't know an awful lot about cars nor do I care about them - unless its a Morgan. Yep - that is how my brain waffles. I am not terribly interested in cars - I can appreciate a nice one, and appreciate classic cars but it just isn't something of my concern today. Lisa liked nice cars.
Anyway Lisa went south for a week to attend a funeral of her aunt. The funeral was delayed and they had already taken a week off work and they had to come home. Very shortly after .. her mother, step father and brother and herself were involved in a terrible crash. Their vehicle went to overtake a ute towing a caravan and it sideswiped the ute (or caravan? I am not really sure) and then it powered into an oncoming smallish four wheel drive. The Internet had pictures of it and it was horrific.
So the accident was completely horrible and words just cant describe it.And I didn't consider her my friend - she was my boss. And mostly I avoided her until I had to move to the top centre - and then she was lovely to me. You see I cause trouble. I argue with lazy workers and I have been dreadful in the past to anyone I think is mean to kids. So - I used to get called up to the boss only for confrontational things. And I hate confrontation. I would be in trouble for being mean to the lunch relief because she left my children alone - or told them they were stinky (the kids are not stinky - the poo is stinky - I get cross at vocabulary like that and I say it.. "Don't tell my kids they are stinky") or when I lost my temper because they allowed too many children in the bathroom and allowed an unsafe work environment.. I would give the other staff member a verbal blast - they would dob and I would get in trouble. So - I always thought she hated me and I avoided her. I upset her staff.
But I was sent up the top centre with her .. and working with that co-worker was lovely and I loved it and... Lisa was just lovely to me. Even when I did get into situations wherein coworkers and I had conflict - she was very understanding about it and it all seemed fine.
Well - when her shocking death occurred and we were told - I put that picture on my facebook. Two of my coworkers objected very much and it was just bad timing. I didn't put that picture on there to be malicious. I put it to explain the shock. Especially as at the same time many people on Facebook that I have loved as a child were adding me as friends and I needed to explain to them why I wasn't so good at answering them.
Actually I feel quite violated because it is my Facebook and I should be able to post what I think or feel on there. And being told to remove it was just offensive. I am completely aware that the pictures of her crash were shocking. I cried at the shock of it.
The majority of our workmates have been so brilliant dealing with this. Some of us cry at the little things - when we think of her beautiful daughter not having her mother at her wedding etc.
Please dont speed. Please be careful.
